I can only trust

I gotta tell you something....I am scared shitless....for the first time in my life.

You see, I am finishing my 13th year of schooling [I guess that equals to college or highschool or something like that] and even though I know where I am going next year, I find myself in desperate anexiaty from time to time. I always loathed the idea of growing up, of taking responsability. I always thought that 18 was so far away and now I am half a year past that point.

I want to dedicate myself to art and to be able to live of the things I make, but it is that notion that scares me the most since I have never taken such an unclear path before. I have always had plans and a backup plan and one more to back that one up, but here, I am really just letting that go, just as Kierkegaard teaches us in his philosophy.

As well as this I have been getting more and more tired with the way dA is evolving. The way it is getting spammed up with people who only run around here for the pageviews and the watches. That is not what this is supposed to be. It is supposed to be a forum for art of all kinds. It is sort of sad really, seeing how the best of the artists here don't even get nearly as much attention as the ones who makes easygoing stuff that pleases the uncritical masses. I am not going to name artists, since people generaly know who they are.

So enough of bitching and whining, I am gonna go read up on the theoreticals for my drivers lisence so I can get that done. I am bored as hell with it. THen I am gonna paint some more.


Oh yeah, if anyone here lives in the vicinity of Oslo and are interested in joining up for some scetching in the city, then please drop me a whisper

Have a nice summer mes amigos


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